Stop Being Afraid Of What Could Go Wrong

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I came across this quote on another blog and I realised that it is extremely relevant to my life right now. I’ve spent a lot of time over the last few days/weeks worrying about what could go wrong and what might fail (the bucket list post being a prime example!!)

It is very easy to look at this quote and say, yep, let’s do that. However, I think it’s something that is easier said than done.

I know with me personally, that something failing causes me a lot of anxiety, and I don’t deal with anxiety very well, so therefore I try and avoid failure and being unsuccessful. However, I’ve learnt that constantly trying not to fail actually produces just as much anxiety! So I’m trying to get over that, it’s just a gradual process!

I’m going to try and take heed of this comment, and look at positives of life rather than the negatives!!

 

 

Bucket List

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So one of my flatmates at University has created a bucket-list. She has an account on bucketlist.org where you list all the things you want to do and check them off as you do them.

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my achievements and actually remember what I’ve done in my life.

However, here comes the big BUT.

BUT, I began to panic. I thought, well what happens if I don’t achieve everything on the list? What happens if I can’t do everything or I don’t work up the courage to do all of the things. I’ll be a failure. So I figured, nope, I won’t do that, there’s no point, I’ll fail and then I’ll feel awful about myself.

Then I thought about it some more today. And decided that what’s so bad about not achieving everything? Surely it’s going to be worse not to aim for anything and therefore not achieve anything? Surely it would be better to aim for say, 10 things, and  only achieve 5, but still achieve some of them? So

 I’ve decided. I’m going to set up account. I will have a bucket list. And I will not beat myself up for failing. But, I will reward myself for my achievements. After all, no one can succeed at everything they do, everyone fails at some point, and that’s something that I  need to keep reminding myself of!

So this post isn’t specifically about OCD or mental health. However, for me, it is directly related. I have low self confidence and can be very insecure about some things, and I don’t think that trait in me has been helped by having OCD and dealing with it. You’d think that having battled it and overcome it would make me more confident, and it does over certain things, particularly about my strength in life. But when it comes to failure or anxiety, that’s my downfall.

So in true CBT fashion, I’m going to challenge my insecurities!!

Look Forward

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I saw this quote on Facebook the other day and thought it was very true. It is important to look to the future and to see what is to come and what there is to look forward to, rather than dwelling on the past. Yes, looking back is important in seeing what you’ve achieved so that you can move forward, but it is important not to live in the past. You can strive for better in the future, you cannot change the past. So focus on changing the future, and instead, take strength from the past and what you have already accomplished.

Not Blogged For A While

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I apologise for my lack of blogging over the last few months. It’s an age old excuse, but I genuinely haven’t had enough time. I started University in October and it’s been extremely hectic. I’ve just come home for Christmas and finally have time to blog again.

A lot has happened in the last few months – I feel as though I’ve grown hugely as a person and I’m loving the University experience. That’s not to say it hasn’t been hard though. Settling in in the first few weeks was one of the hardest challenges of my life. I was desperate to come home to my comfort zone, but I’m so glad I stuck it out. There have been ups and downs, some of which have involved tackling OCD and contamination thoughts. I’ve overcome them all though which I think is a sign of how strong I’ve become, and a sign of how it is possible to become so strong that it is feasible to succeed in dealing with things away from your family, close friends and your comfort zone.

I’m planning on getting back into a regular blogging routine. I’m very sorry again for my absence, but I’m glad to be back!

A Journey Of A Thousand Miles Begins With A Single Step

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“A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step – Lao Tzu.”

I thought this quote was indicative of OCD treatment. It takes just one step, no matter how small, to get started with OCD treatment. It is a long process and can seem like a journey of a thousand miles, but at the end of it, just as you would with a journey, you feel a sense of achievement and an increase in your quality of life! It doesn’t matter if you go back steps in the process of it, all that matters is that you are fighting and trying. All you need are baby steps, or pigeon steps, whichever you think are smaller!

Just as babies need adults and parents to hold their hands, it can be the same for OCD treatment. Get your loved ones to hold your hand as you go through the process, support is invaluable and can make your life so much better. Don’t go it alone!

Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there

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“Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.” – Will Rogers

This is one of the quotes that I have stuck up around my mirror and it occurred to me today, that this is a philosophy I think I live by.

After completing my CBT therapy (I promise, a post about CBT is coming, it’s just taking a while!) my therapist made it very clear that it was easy to swing back into “not normal” behaviours and therefore it was going to be necessary to guard against them. She described it as this, there are 3 different ways in which you can live, which are slob, normal and OCD.

Slob                                                Normal                                         OCD

She explained that the further you can go towards slob the least likely it is that you return to OCD behaviours. So if you can stay between slob and normal that would be great.

Thus, I challenge myself to ‘slob like behaviours’ which is just basically going above and beyond what is normal. For example, maybe I won’t shower if I don’t think I need to, or I won’t put a top in the wash after I’ve worn it a few times when the ‘normal behaviours’ would be to shower or to put the top in the wash.

Therefore, I think this quote is particularly relevant to me, I keep challenging some of my instincts that would lean towards OCD behaviour to make sure I never, ever go back there. But I think it can also be applied to life in general, not just OCD treatment. If you constantly push yourself then you’re going to go somewhere, there’s no point in stopping just because you’ve got somewhere, you can always go further and achieve more!

Life doesn’t get easier, you just get stronger

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I thought this was extremely true. I think that I am now a stronger person after having beaten my OCD than I was before. I find that I can do more things and deal with more anxiety than before. I guess there is always a silver lining…

I think that OCD does make you a stronger person, and those who fight it are amongst the strongest people I know. Life isn’t easy, and I don’t think it should be either. If you have adversity in your life I think it makes you appreciate everything so much more, at least that is what I found in my experience with OCD. My life is so much better now, but I appreciate it much more than I think I would have done if I never had to deal with the consequences of OCD.

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